第一季的最後一集遲遲沒有寫下筆記,一來因為忙碌,二來這集基本上沒有拋下什麼大炸彈,只是收了一些線又埋了一些線。因為已經宣佈了第二季,更不會提心吊膽地猜測接下來會怎樣,老實等待就可以了。
Dani
Rodolfo: I taught you to have ambition and pride. Her family is… -00:23:41
Dani: Is loving and kind and supportive.
Rodolfo: I don’t want you to take a step backward.
Dani: I’m not.
Rodolfo: Listen, when you are… when you come from a broken family like Sophie, that’s the only way you know to live.
Dani: She’s not from a broken family.
Rodolfo: She doesn’t know stability, and I’m afraid that when things get hard, she’s gonna leave you, because that-that’s what she knows.
Dani: Dad, she’s so much better than that. She’s not gonna leave me. We love each other, and we’re good together. I need you to be okay with that.
Rodolfo: Okay.
Dani自己也明白她把熱情奉獻給工作而冷落了Sophie,雖然她也盡力把剩下的關注全給予Sophie,只是對Sophie來說那還是不夠。不難理解Sophie的心情,可是看到這段Dani不斷為她掛保證的時候,真的很難不同情Dani。第二季中Dani肯定會受到傷害,畢竟不管Sophie離不離開她都不會讓她多好過。
個人猜測最後Sophie會去追Finely,陪她解決家庭問題,回去跟Dani解釋一番又糾纏一段時間才能說清並分開。
也許還會有一幕Dani會對父親發脾氣說:"你開心了嗎?都被你猜中了,她真的離開我了"之類的。被人看低自己的感情,結果還真的被對方說中的滋味超級難受!
Shane & Quiara
Quiara: I’m still gonna have a baby, Shane. I’m gonna try again as soon as I’m ready. -00:26:01
Shane: Yeah…um…yeah.
Quiara: I fucking knew it.
Shane: You knew what?
Quiara: You were relieved. I lost a baby, and you were relieved.
Shane: No, no, no, no. I was relieved that you were okay.
Quiara: That’s bullshit.
Shane: What?
Quiara: You win. You get whatever you want.
Shane: Hold on a second. That’s not fair.
Quiara: None of this is fucking fair, Shane.
Shane: Hey, listen, you knew I didn’t want this, but you showed up pregnant anyway. So what was I supposed to do?
Quiara: You could have been honest from the beginning.
Shane: I was honest with you.
Quiara: Well, then why did you agree to this?
Shane: Because I love you. And I agreed to do this so I could be with you.
Quiara: Do you want to be with me now?
Shane: Yeah.
Quiara: So you’re saying you would like to try again, too?
Shane: I’m-I’m saying… that,uh… I want to be realistic and to… and to plan.
Quiara: That’s-that’s what I thought.
Shane: What?
Quiara: No one is ever going to love you because you’re incapable of loving anyone but your fucking self. (walked away but turned back and holding a ring) Remember this? I never got rid of it.
因為緊張Quiere的身體,一向不怎麼發飆的Shane也忍不住兇醫務人員;因為愛Quiere,所以即使對養育孩子感到十分恐懼也還是聽從Tess的建議,不斷去嘗試溝通。Quiere這番話相信只是氣急之言,但真的對Shane不公平,只是沒有人會忍心在這種時候指責剛失去孩子的她,可是…Shane真的真的真的何其無辜。
Carmen: It is the practice of having a single mate during a period of time. Does that… mean anything to you? -Season 3, ep06
Shane: I’m willing to try. Is that not enough? I’m willing to try something that doesn’t come naturally to me, and that I don’t understand but am willing to try.
Carmen: Right. Birds, Shane, I’m talking about a god-damn-fucking bird. Asking you to be as civilized as a god-damn-fucking bird.
TLW時期的Shane說一句Sorry像是要她的命,即使愛著Carmen也是心不甘情不願地說雖然不理解單一伴侶的意義但會願意嘗試,而在TLWQ時期的她起碼懂得了如何好好對待伴侶,也明白了維持婚姻的原因,並且努力走到了養育孩子的階段。在這集的最後她撿回了流浪狗估計也是想要鍛煉自己的責任感。
跳tone一下引用GLOD裡面女王所說的話:
Bette & Angie
Bette: Are you sad about her getting married? -00:45:48
Angie: Yeah. I guess a tiny part of me always hoped that… you two would get back together. I know it sounds stupid, but I did…
Bette: No, no, no, no, it’s not… It’s not stupid. I’m really sorry that…that you saw me like that.
Angie: It’s okay. You never let yourself be sad.
Bette: What do you mean?
Angie: Well, Mom left and then Aunt Kit died, and…I see you. You just…
Bette: What?
Angie: You just kept going.
Bette: I think that I felt that if I…if I truly let myself grieve, then that would mean… saying a final goodbye, and I wasn’t ready to do that. I guess I just try to outrun my feelings.
Alice & Nat
Alice: I thought I was this cool, open, you know, understanding queer lady who wanted to live outside of every box, and…I’m not. I-I’m just, uh…I’m heartbroken. -00:53:21
Roxane Gay: Yeah, that’s understandable.
Alice: Because I just want Nat. You know, just Nat.
Nat: I’m here.
(The audience burst into an uproar.)
Alice: What?
Nat: Hi.
Alice: What’s happening?
Nat: Sorry. Um, I’m here. It’s me.
Alice: Can we cut?
(Sophie told the camera men to keep rolling.)
Nat: I was gonna wait for you in your office, but then I heard what you were saying, and I just…
Alice: I-I’m in the middle of a show.
Nat: Sorry. Um, can I… Can I go up there?
Alice: No.
(Sophie told Nat to go up)
Alice: What’s happening?
(Nat got down on one knee, people cheering)
Nat: No. No, I’m not proposing. I’m just trying to get closer to her.
Alice: Yeah, I don’t do marriage.
Nat: Okay. I want you, too. I lost a marriage because I was afraid to fight for what I wanted, and I’m not gonna make the same mistake twice. I love you. I am in love with you. And I feel like my complete and total self when I’m with you. And you make me laugh, even when I’m mad, which is so fucking annoying. But it makes me love you even more. And your maternal instincts are a little off, but…
Alice: Well,I’m-I’m…
Nat: Well, I know. And you wake up every morning and you burn the shit out of their eggs, and I love that.
Alice: They’re deceivingly hard to make.
Nat: Not really. They’re very easy. Love, you tried to make it work with my ex-wife because you thought it would make me happy.
Alice: I did. I really did that.
Nat: Yeah, I know. (to Roxena) I mean, she’s the fucking best.
Alice: (to Roxena) I’m pretty great.
Nat: Yeah, you are. I love you. I’m gonna fight for you. Okay?
Alice: Just me?
Nat: Yes. Just you.
Bonus
Alice: You’re handling this all really well. -00:19:36
Bette: Well, we went out swinging. I gave everything I had to the campaign and I found a way to be myself. What more could anyone ask for?
Rebecca: It’ not a cut-and-dry thing. It is a lifelong journey… of cultivating… self-worth, self-love. -00:39:51
Finely: Love? I don’t even like myself right now, like, at all. I need… I need some help here.
Rebecca: Okay. It feels really good sometimes to take responsibility for the mistakes that you’ve made. Just little things. Just start small. little baby steps.
總覺得第一季想要表達的一個小主題是:你可以影響你的伴侶,但你沒有辦法去改變你的伴侶;能夠改變的只有自身。如果兩人怎樣都無法磨合的話,也許不是誰的錯,只是你們不適合。
最後,例牌地期待一下第二季。對我個人來說,比較好奇Quiere拋下的戒指有什麼故事、Alice跟Nat會不會再牽扯到Gigi,還有Carrie到底會是怎樣的人、和Tina有什麼故事。
至於新世代的幾位…再看多幾季培養感情吧。